A Defiant Act Of Praise
Over 70% of the psalms in the Scriptures are a particular type of psalm called a lament. The western church does not utilize the lament all that often in worship. Why? The intensity of emotion that it captures. A lament reveals the rawest of emotions in language that most would never think to hear or say in church or towards God.
I am weary with my moaning; every night I flood my bed with tears; I drench my couch with my weeping. Psalm 6:6
For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered. Psalm 44:22
My God, My God! Why have you forsaken me? Psalm 22:1
Laments can be accusatory towards God. They reveal the deepest of sorrow, anger, and anguish. They were also a vital part of both private and public worship for the Hebrews. This heart-rendering, raw, emotive communication was core to their understanding of relating to God.
If you think about it, it makes sense. Who normally gets the rawest of emotions from us? Who normally gets the brunt of our frustration and anger? Whether they deserve it or not, those closest to us often get the full, unfiltered version of our feelings.
That’s exactly what we see with the laments. David. Job. Moses. Abraham. Elijah. All wrote and prayed laments to God. They are raw and real. There’s no holding back.
Here’s what is also there: The Defiant Act of Praise.
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. Psalm 13:5
I will sing the LORD’s praise… Psalm 13:6
In every one of the laments, there is a moment where The Defiant Act of Praise rings out. What is this about? It’s about presence.
The Hebrews believed that God inhabited the praises of His people. To invite God into their hurt, they always followed their raw confession with raw praise. By doing this, they knew He was there.
I don’t think I can explain this mystery fully. There is something deeply profound and cathartic in pouring out your soul to God. All of it. The anger, the questions, the frustration, the hurt, the confusion, the anxiety, the sadness. It doesn’t seem to bother God to be the brunt of all of this. Then, by also defiantly choosing to praise Him in the middle of that mess, it’s almost as if that is the invitation for Him to enter into it. And He does.
I’ve experienced this. I’ve seen others experience this. It’s completely unexplainable but observable. There in the middle of the rawest of emotions, even anger towards God, He arrives.
In my misery.
In my pain.
In my lament.
What remains a holy mystery to me is how that in itself is enough. So many times, the circumstance isn’t changed. The hurting doesn’t stop. But something changes, something that I can’t exactly put my finger on. Maybe it’s me. Maybe it’s not.
Either way, there is an awareness of Him that makes it a Holy Moment, and that seems to be the ‘just enough’ I need.
And tomorrow, I will stand. With my lament. And with my defiant act of praise.
And He will be there.